More thoughts on why I haven't been writing on here...

Okay, I've reread that last post and it seems a bit harsh to me today... perhaps I am reacting to something.... it seems that for me to write, I need to take time to reflect... it could be that I am not taking time to reflect.... life seems to be incredibly demanding of late... how much of that is my own fault for not setting better boundaries? how much of it is the season of life I find myself in?

What would God want me to know about Him in the midst of this....

This question seems the only one worth actually spending time to ponder.

OKAY Dawn, this one's for you....

Hahahaha!

Okay already... here is a NEW post, just for you my friend!

I don't know why I cannot seem to find anything to say on this blog. I have no idea if this is a serious case of Writer's block or something more... such as an sneaking suspicion that spending time journalling my thoughts publicly MAY be a self-serving absorbing use of my time and energy....

I have NO idea if it is what I should be doing or not... there seems to be so little of that (time/energy) to go around and writing (especially on here in a public venue) seems to be some kind of self-serving use of what little I have to offer others... I have NO idea if any of these inklings are true or just more morbid introspection... so I do nothing....

From time to time I ask God if there is anything that He'd like for me to say on here... and usually I hear nothing... and I take that to mean His answer is "No, not really".

So I have come to an uneasy "peace" with the uncertainty of writing in general and writing on here specifically... I occasionally think of this place (usually when I notice my signature in gmail and feel a pang of guilt for not having actually offered anything here lately...) on those few occasions I briefly ask God if there is anything He'd like for me to say... and usually nothing specific comes to mind... so, I do nothing and hope that I am listening to what I THINK I hear Him asking me to do....

Or perhaps I am just not wanting to do the hard work of writing... it is possible that I am avoiding the "labor of love" that I am called to work out for the sake of others.... I just don't really know....

How's that for a new post?